title. an appointment you don't want keep
summary. songs about loneliness, abandonment, and upset
format/size. mp3/m4a, zip, 66mb
notes. i made this over a year ago and never posted it, so therefore the emotion that was behind it then isn't that present now, but i still like it. it's mostly about feeling inadequate for others, for friends, for loved ones.




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title. so mind the floor boards
summary. for when the ghosts in your bedroom no longer scare you
format/size. mp3/zip, 96mb
notes. Heavily inspired by Getting By by Howard Hall. Photography in banner by Katherine White.




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title. nothing and nowhere
fandom/pairing. twilight / edward/jacob
format/size. mp3/zip, 78mb
summary. Edward and Jacob have been together for years, getting married and settling into what they assume will be blissful eternity. Jacob was turned into a hybrid (both vampire and wolf, half and half) years ago, but has been fighting against the angry monster that lives inside him, that lives inside all immortals. Edward coaxes this part of Jacob out without thinking of the repercussions and the monster takes over, shoving the Jacob Edward fell in love with deep inside -- completely aware but helpless. Edward is tortured and broken down in the time the monster is present inside of Jacob, glutting himself on humans and eventually convincing Edward to do the same. It is when this happens that Jacob finally breaks free, seeing the damage that has been done. For months, Edward and Jacob fight, both battling demons the other can't understand but are battling themselves. It's weeks and weeks of touch and go, trying to get close and pushing each other away. Eventually, Jacob leaves, upset that the Edward he fell for is now barely a shell of himself. It leads to months apart, and talks of divorce and lonely eternities. In the end, both cannot be without the other and Edward finally finds a way to heal and change himself, to be the person Jacob deserves. This leads to a reunion in Italy -- where Edward had retreated to -- that both were sure could never happen. This is the base of this mix.
notes. This is based off a plotline in a personal role-play between myself and havens (the Jacob to my Edward). The writing included is from threads during the six month arc of this story, taking a month for us to write. Also, the manip in the tracklisting is one havens made and that I shamelessly stole. And as if she didn't help me enough, she also helped me pick excerpts and proofread this post for me. She's kinda amazing. Lastly, Nicolas Bemberg and Steven Strait are featured as Edward Cullen and Jacob Black respectively.




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title. fuck you, valentine's day
summary. for all of us single and/or jilted lovers. songs to heal, songs to feel better about being single, and songs to remind us why we broke up with that asshole.
format/size. mp3/zip, 98mb
notes. Photography in banner by sister72 on flickr.




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title. in the end, we are nothing, and we are alone.
summary. for when everyone has beat up you beyond repair, and you feel like nothing will ever heal you over.
format/size. mp3/zip, 56mb
notes. Image by Olivia Bee.




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title. two thousand and eight
summary. a compilation of my favorite songs released in 2008.
format/size. mp3/m4a, zip, 185mb
notes. This only includes songs released in 2008. Photo credit to Oona Smet.




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title. yule shoot your eye out!
summary. a collection of what i consider the bestest songs for christmastime.
format/size. mp3/m4a, zip, 280mb
notes. Features photos by Cindy Cinnamon.




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title. Complex Simplicity
summary. A two disc mix with one for each character. Consider it like a mix cd they'd make and listen to in their cars around the time when they start to see each other.
fandom/pairing. Twilight / Edward/Jacob
format/size. mp3/m4a, zip, 131mb
notes. Features Nicolas Bemberg and Steven Strait as Edward and Jacob.




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title. the fuck-up mix
summary. a "I am no good, run away from me, I am a mess, I can't fix myself so you can't either" type of thing.
format/size. mp3/zip, 270mb
notes. Originally posted here.

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title. At the Crossroads I am Standing
fandom/pairing. Twilight / Edward/Jacob
format/size. mp3/m4a, zip, 74mb
notes. Features Nicolas Bemberg and Steven Strait as Edward and Jacob. Originally posted here.




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